If love is a puzzle for ordinary people. For me, and I imagine others like me with bipolar or borderline, love is an insane jigsaw puzzle...With extra pieces thrown in just to make it that much more difficult. Love is stressful. The moment I do something wrong, or make the other person mad or frustrated with … Continue reading alice

the best medicine

Laughter. There is something about it that can make the dark that engulfs me at times disappear. I don't know how it happens. Over a century ago, William James—an American physician, philosopher, and educator, who many consider the father of modern psychology—wisely said, "We don’t laugh because we’re happy. We’re happy because we laugh.” There … Continue reading the best medicine

mt everest

For me, the hardest part of having a mental illness is the way it seems to always leak out on to those around me.  I see how the people around me are constantly having to give up and sacrifice things on my behave.  The life that they live is not what they hoped or expected. … Continue reading mt everest

center stage

Can I be honest? Every once in a while, especially after a session with Dr. C.  I can't stop thinking about myself... lol.. ok, that sounds odd. But I mean it in the context of who I am and how much about myself that people around me seem to want me to change. I completely agree that because … Continue reading center stage


This last time I was struggling through a depression cycle of my bipolar, I had these made for me.  I needed a way to remind my self constantly of hope. Hope is the strongest thing to have when you are in the throws of depression. Yet it is the hardest thing to keep. At least for me … Continue reading h.o.p.e