scars and stories…

Every scar, seen or hidden, has a story to tell. I have grown up with mostly invisible and hidden scars, the ones that people couldn't see. The ones that were visible I would hide or they have now faded. Some of the invisible scars are very much still there and I don't let anybody see … Continue reading scars and stories…

check the box if… seriously?

It has been 19 days since my last post, so says my stats page.  Each time I log on to this blog it's right there, the first thing I see... like it's on a countdown reminding me I have been neglectful. Though it sure doesn't seem that long.  Time has flown by these last few weeks. So, … Continue reading check the box if… seriously?

no crazy here

October the season that awakens my soul... It is my favorite time of year. I look forward to it for ten long months. When summer says goodbye and the air turns crisp and cool. Where I live we have 4 months of cold snowy winter, 2 months of a wet warm/cold spring. 4 months of a hot summer... then 2 months … Continue reading no crazy here


This happens every time... When I'm on meds, I usually start to think that they aren't working, or I guess really working too well.. They make feel flat, like they are erasing all my emotions... Dr C tells me that I am so use to the extreme highs and lows and intense emotions.. (example: this post)... … Continue reading flatlining


If love is a puzzle for ordinary people. For me, and I imagine others like me with bipolar or borderline, love is an insane jigsaw puzzle...With extra pieces thrown in just to make it that much more difficult. Love is stressful. The moment I do something wrong, or make the other person mad or frustrated with … Continue reading alice

the best medicine

Laughter. There is something about it that can make the dark that engulfs me at times disappear. I don't know how it happens. Over a century ago, William James—an American physician, philosopher, and educator, who many consider the father of modern psychology—wisely said, "We don’t laugh because we’re happy. We’re happy because we laugh.” There … Continue reading the best medicine

mt everest

For me, the hardest part of having a mental illness is the way it seems to always leak out on to those around me.  I see how the people around me are constantly having to give up and sacrifice things on my behave.  The life that they live is not what they hoped or expected. … Continue reading mt everest

center stage

Can I be honest? Every once in a while, especially after a session with Dr. C.  I can't stop thinking about myself... lol.. ok, that sounds odd. But I mean it in the context of who I am and how much about myself that people around me seem to want me to change. I completely agree that because … Continue reading center stage