Just warning you this post is going to be real. I haven't written for a while because I haven't really been me. I took my meds and went to bed tonight imaging elephants around me. Trying to recreate the feelings and emotions I felt from my elephant dream... (there's a post about it) But it didn't … Continue reading the master puppeteer
It has been 19 days since my last post, so says my stats page. Each time I log on to this blog it's right there, the first thing I see... like it's on a countdown reminding me I have been neglectful. Though it sure doesn't seem that long. Time has flown by these last few weeks. So, … Continue reading check the box if… seriously?
This happens every time... When I'm on meds, I usually start to think that they aren't working, or I guess really working too well.. They make feel flat, like they are erasing all my emotions... Dr C tells me that I am so use to the extreme highs and lows and intense emotions.. (example: this post)... … Continue reading flatlining
Do you ever just have one of those days when everything just looks blah...? Even the weather is cooperating with my mood. It's cloudy and rainy, a bit chilly and damp. I normally love it when it rains... I don't know what is up with me today. Maybe the weather today is accentuating my mood.. I … Continue reading restless
For me, the hardest part of having a mental illness is the way it seems to always leak out on to those around me. I see how the people around me are constantly having to give up and sacrifice things on my behave. The life that they live is not what they hoped or expected. … Continue reading mt everest
This last time I was struggling through a depression cycle of my bipolar, I had these made for me. I needed a way to remind my self constantly of hope. Hope is the strongest thing to have when you are in the throws of depression. Yet it is the hardest thing to keep. At least for me … Continue reading h.o.p.e