scars and stories…

Every scar, seen or hidden, has a story to tell. I have grown up with mostly invisible and hidden scars, the ones that people couldn't see. The ones that were visible I would hide or they have now faded. Some of the invisible scars are very much still there and I don't let anybody see … Continue reading scars and stories…

Embrace Crazy, Love Tex-Mex and Hope On

I just got back from the food store with an arm full of bags of good food. I am always happy that I went to the food store after the fact, but there is a dialogue that my mind knows very well, that happens at some level of consciousness when it is time to go. … Continue reading Embrace Crazy, Love Tex-Mex and Hope On

what i want to say is…

  I have discovered over the past year how much drawing and painting help me connect to my feelings and emotions. I have also discovered over the past little while how much music can say the things I want to say but for one reason or the other can't. I have always had a great love for music, which … Continue reading what i want to say is…

it’s not a pen fetish… i promise

So. I have this thing for pens.  Like not quite a fetish.. But I can stand in the isle at the office supply store (oh, how i love those stores) and look, and touch and test them, all over the little testing papers they put out... for a really long time.. and I purchase more … Continue reading it’s not a pen fetish… i promise

no crazy here

October the season that awakens my soul... It is my favorite time of year. I look forward to it for ten long months. When summer says goodbye and the air turns crisp and cool. Where I live we have 4 months of cold snowy winter, 2 months of a wet warm/cold spring. 4 months of a hot summer... then 2 months … Continue reading no crazy here


This happens every time... When I'm on meds, I usually start to think that they aren't working, or I guess really working too well.. They make feel flat, like they are erasing all my emotions... Dr C tells me that I am so use to the extreme highs and lows and intense emotions.. (example: this post)... … Continue reading flatlining

the best medicine

Laughter. There is something about it that can make the dark that engulfs me at times disappear. I don't know how it happens. Over a century ago, William James—an American physician, philosopher, and educator, who many consider the father of modern psychology—wisely said, "We don’t laugh because we’re happy. We’re happy because we laugh.” There … Continue reading the best medicine